"I hate you!!!" i shouted at her.
words that should never cross my lips escaped my mouth. words that hurt words that end things between two people. i looked back at her...she was crying...and it was all my fault. i know why. this would have never have happened if...if i hadnt fallen in love with her. maybe things wouldnt have gotten this bad if i had not met her either.
i turned away from thos lovely green eyes that were shining with tears. i couldnt stand it. i told her i hated her...yet with all my heart i knew i still loved her...DAMMIT!!! why am i so stupid, i thought.
"do you reall mean that Vihn?" she asked tears coming quicker.
"yes...no...i just dont know" i stammered withoout looking at her.
it was so hard talking to her. she meant everything to me at one time...even though she was only my friend through out the time i knew her. i was nothing more to her...but i just...just couldnt take it anymore. i had to end it. lets face it when you start drifting away from the one you love with all your heart it hurts. i just want it to end.
"Kylin...just leave me alone i dont care anymore," i told her.
"FINE!!! whatever i dont care either!" Kyli shouted at me.
she stopped crying and stormed off. i never wanted to end it i never wanted to lose my friend..."Kyli...i love forever and a day.." i whispered to myself with tears falling from my eyes this time.
i walked away in thn oposite direction with nothing but my pain and saddeness in my heart.
th next few days were like a nightmare. i couldnt focus, i couldnt work. i was not myself. i was always depressed and i ditched my friends constantly to be by myself every time isaw Kyli in the hallways at school i couldnt look at her so i stared at the ground. i never wanted to end it...but it did. the times i could look at her she looked back at glared...she hated me, no she loathed me. i never thought that when we ended things between us it would end  up like this. just because i told her i hated her. it's all my fault.
i wish i could tell her im sorry but its too late...its also too late to tell her i love her. i was so stupid..i started to run...run any where. in my head in my head head i kept picturing her...her green eyes that shined when she was happy, her long brown hair, and her smile that made her look amazingly pretty.
i reached a an empty part of school and started to punch the wall with all my strength. the pain in my fists were minimal compared to the pain in myself. istopped punching the cement wall and looked at my knuckles...the were bruised, cut and bleeding in certain places. istarted to speak outloud to comfort myself, "Why?dammit! why did i do something so stupid"
"Kyli i dont hate you...i love you...with all my heart i love you," i said to myself...with my tears returning.
the sound of heavy objects falling attracted my attention. i turned around and there she was...staring at me with look of disbelief on her face. i looked back into her green eyes..."kyli..." i whispered.
my attention did not stay on her long. she was in the arms of another guy he was staring at me too but not with dibelief but witha triumphant look on his face...he heard what i said also. he let go of kyli and picked up the books she dropped and gave them to her and said, "baby girl i think you dropped these."
she was still looking at me when she took her books back. i looked back at her one final time and gave the wall one final blow and started walking towards them. the guy she was with, her boyfriend, got in front of her and started to say something. what he said i couldnt register but as i got closer e kyli looked away and her boyfriend told me to leave her alone...that he knew what happened between us...he even said that i wasnt even her friend anymore so i shouldnt even be talking ton her. at those words i got even more depressed and looked down at the floor. as i came next to him i brought up my right hand and slammed a punch into his face, "shut up! i know what i did and i wish i hadnt done it!" ' shouted.
he looked stunned so i gave him another punch to the face..."and stay away from me before i go all out on you!!!"
he looked back at me scared. the look in my eyes was probably the scariest thing he ever saw on a human being...i was glaring him down.
as i passed kyli i whispered to her so that only she could hear, "you couldve done better...even if it wasnt me...i'll always love you even if we arent friends anymore kyli..."
with that i was the one walking away this time...